Overwhelming darkness.
It lurks in the background.
Always there.
With every step I take,
it takes 2 more.
“Let’s take a trip to hell, shall we?”
The deepest evil whispers.
I most certainly do not go willingly.
Though it is enticingly evil and
disturbingly comforting.
The control is not mine.
Don’t look at me.
I know you can tell.
I know you judge me.
Are you aware of my deal with the devil?
Pure evil, pure terror.
It wants to devour me.
It needs me to let go.
It preys on my weakness.
The fight in me is gone.
How bad do I need it to stop?
“End it.”
It whispers.
“You can make the pain stop.”
The voice is appealing.
Seductive even.
I completely surrender
Now is the time.
I close my eyes and hope for eternal sleep.
No more anger.
No more pain.
No more weakness.
Just a sweet release.
The feeling of shackles being removed.
Peace in my mind.
Suddenly the darkness is replaced.
A flicker of light.
I open my eyes.
Do I recognize this feeling?
Is it love?
Is it joy?
Is it, hope?
I run to it.
I cling to it.
My life depends on it.
My heart will continue the fight against my mind.
A glimpse of evil.
The darkness now grey.
It waits.
For another day.
NEVER-ENDING BATTLE
