If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts, the following post may be triggering. If you need support now, you can call or text the Suicide and Crisis Life Line 988. I was suicidal. That’s the only way to explain it. I was constantly hearing voices in my head telling me to end it. I started planning in my head what I would do to end it all. That was the only choice and that was the way it had to be. I was having HORRIBLE nightmares. Terrifying nightmares where I would scream so loud in the middle of the night and wake my husband. I don’t remember what those nightmares were…

If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts, the following post may be triggering. If you need support now, you can call or text the Suicide and Crisis Life Line 988. I’m done. I’ve succeeding in pushing my husband away. Guess I learned from the best. Here I am, suicidal, and I’m not sure why I haven’t just done it already. – An entry I made in my notepad on my phone on April 15th, 2021. Two days before I admitted myself into a mental hospital. About nine months ago, this was me. Completely mad. Completely losing my mind. I was in a very deep depression and dealing with severe anxiety. Ok,…

“Until you heal the wounds of your past, you are going to bleed. You can bandage the bleeding with food, with alcohol, with drugs, with work, with cigarettes, with sex; But eventually, it will all ooze through and stain your life. You must find the strength to open the wounds, stick your hands inside and pull out the core of the pain that is holding you in your past, the memories, and make peace with them.“ Iyanla Vanzant I stumbled upon this quote a few days ago and it has stuck with me. There is so much truth to this quote. If you are feeling the wounds of your past,…